My
Story
Where
to begin? At the beginning you say? That would seem like the most logical
answer, but I’m an alcoholic, so logical just doesn’t seem to come natural to
me. Drinking and destruction is what does come natural. I am beginning to work
on starting things like they should be started, at the beginning, but I am not
quite there yet. I am a 31(almost 32) –year-old recovering sober alcoholic. I
feel the need to stress that I am a recovering SOBER alcoholic because
unfortunately this disease consumes so many of us and it causes many more to
struggle so much that they never get the opportunity to truly experience recovery. I am sober 654
days and counting as of today, June 27, 2013. With the help of my Higher Power
and others like me, I may just get to lay my head down tonight without the use
of an alcoholic sleeping aid. My sobriety date, which is very important to me,
is September 12, 2011.
I started drinking at the very early age of
seven. Some people may see that and think, “WHAT?! Seven?!” I would just like
to say to them, “Don’t worry, I was a very grown up seven- year-old. I mean I did
have seven years of experience
watching my parents do it.” I was invited into the parties that my parents were
throwing because I think they figured out that it was easier for their seven-year-old
to get their fresh beer from the refrigerator. As the hours would pass, I would
even get to open the beer for them as well. So I figured that I could start
tasting them for them too, and I did. I don’t remember my first drink of
alcohol, however I do remember the beginning of my drinking. I remember that I
didn’t enjoy the taste too much, but I did like what I saw. I just knew that I
wanted to feel the way everyone else did.
Over
the years I got to experience that feeling and ALL of the other feelings that
went along with it. I was overweight and 30, among other things, when I found
myself sitting in another police car as I was being arrested for DUI number
two. This was the first time that I had
finally reached the point of being sick and tired of being sick and tired. This
is where my life truly begins. Living in sobriety isn’t easy, but at least I
get the chance to LIVE today. Thank you God.
Wow....you are really open about your recovery process. What you are doing is inspiring and wonderful. Hopeful some one with a similar story can latch on to the newly found sober journey that you are on. Keep up the good work.
ReplyDeleteMarkboogie,
DeleteOpenness is the key to my success in recovery. If I am not open and honest about who I am and where I am, then I have no hope of staying sober. Drinking is only a symptom of the actual problem, and the actual problem is me. Thank you for your support and inspired comment. God Bless.
Honesty open-mindedness, and willingness are key points that I have grown to cherish throughout this journey. Because of these things I get to lay my head down at night and feel good about myself and the progress that I am making. It also allows me to see where I made mistakes and where I need to improve. God has freed me from my obsessive thoughts and actions and continues to show me new ways of improvement each day, if I turn back now it would be the same as smacking God in the face. This is why I remain open and let people know where I am at. For me, to drink is to die.
ReplyDeleteWhat you are doing is truly admirable. I really respect how open and honest you seem to be to yourself and to others, because surely that is the start to any succesful journey.It is amazing how you have been able to come to terms with yourself to live a sober and healthy lifestyle, because as you mentioned ,it is incredibly hard to break away from something you have been very use to from such a young age. I really feel that you will help inspire and motivate others who may be struggle with similar situations. I wish you the best with your goals and self fulfilments and look forward to following with your post.
ReplyDeleteGiancarlo,
DeleteThank you for taking time to view my blog and also for the feedback. My inspiration comes from God, and because HE has taken this obsession from me I believe I should give back what has been freely given to me. Honesty is the only way for me to help myself and others attain sobriety. I love this new life that I have, and I can only pray that other people are able to have the opportunity to experience what I have been able to experience. Open-mindedness, willingness, and honesty are the keys that have enabled me to unlock the door to the prison cell that I was in for so many years. Please come back often. God Bless.